Spirituality… It’s seriously not a Trend.

I’m not trying to hate on anyone with this blog post, I can truly feel that some of them are very good people inside, but this has been slightly bothersome to me for almost 3 years, at the point when “Spirituality” completely blew up. For one thing, we are constantly flooded with fake news, and when so many hopped on the spiritual train, then attempted to take it somewhere else, I couldn’t help but to laugh in the beginning as it all seemed quite ludicrous to me.

Monk in meditation

Truly spiritual people do not care what their hair or nails look like. We do not make appointments to spend time at a salon. That is a waste of time to us. We utilize that time to go deeper internally. We do not care what we are wearing. We do not care to own a bunch of THINGS. We do not tout that we just attended Yoga, snapping shots for all to see. We actually do the least amount of physical activity as possible. At times, we may even neglect our physical selves. We do have our human moments, as we are alive as well… just far from as much as the general society. It is within my human moments, that last around 10 minutes, when I will flip open up a catalogue or go online, purchase a few items and then they end up sitting in my closet forever. Getting dressed on a daily basis consists of grabbing the first things at the top of a pile and then going inside of myself. Comfort Trumps Beauty 99% of the time.

Back in 2004, I went through a Year of what I refer to as a “Shamanism Phase”. I did not and do not spend my time reading text after text of literature explaining to me technical knowledge. I just EXPERIENCE it, work through the energy, gaining real life wisdom to then help others. You will never see or hear me repeating someone else. Though, I have been asked at times if I have read the material of certain individual’s since my conclusions were along the lines of theirs. My reply was simply, “I guess they are correct then!” If these individual’s were coming up with what I had, then they themselves have experience.

During my Shamanism Phase, I immersed myself in the Symbolism of Tarot. I spent about 14 hours a day in deep study. There were times when my Oldest son, who at that time was about 9 years old, would remind to to eat. Yes, My child had to remind me. Especially, when it got past 2-3 days. I wasn’t paying attention to my physical body, aside from the robotic daily shower, doing what I needed to do for my children, then quickly getting back to my studies. I found myself irritated and would grab a few pretzels, crunch them down and say, “There.” Next….. This went on for about a year. Every day would seem as though I was living in a fog. Physical activities appeared to be a blur.

Computer Monitor of the 90’s- early 2000’s

I remember the day I came out of this experience. I was sitting in front of my computer and I went to grab a candle that was on top of my Monitor. Our Monitors back then were chunky pieces of technology that took up space. As I was reaching for the candle I saw my wrist. At first, I thought it was someone else’s wrist and had a few seconds of confusion and disbelief, as I blinked my eyes and realized it was my own. How SKINNY I had become!!!! I didn’t choose when I entered into this “shamanism phase” nor when I exited. But, it was that very night that I had exited. I ran to the bathroom and fully looked myself over. I had been clearly on the edge of death. I didn’t recognize myself. Underneath my eyes was shallow skin of blackness. My physical body looking like a skeleton. Being on the edge of death allows for the individual to live more so in between dimensions to experience certain things that a human really shouldn’t. I will straight out send the warning— DO NOT do this on purpose! I didn’t do it on purpose, and it would be irresponsible and foolish to put yourself in this position just to experience what I am talking about.

Throughout my whole life I have gone in and out of experiences that I could never really explain or speak about to those that surrounded me. My family and most of my friends would not understand. I didn’t even completely understand what was happening to me and why. I’ve been asked by friends who were very interested in what I would speak about “why didn’t I just go and look it up at the library” as a child. Well, when you are brought up in a family of 7 older people who keep telling you that it’s your imagination, you’re making up stories, you’re trying to get attention and that what you’re experiencing isn’t real…. and you are told this repeatedly you start to believe them and think what you’re experiencing doesn’t exist, and that you just might be crazy. I’m going to give an embellished example, so that those that have never experienced anything outlandish can understand… Say you were to see a floating bottle of ketchup. Then you go to tell your family members, of whom are supposed to love and support you that a ketchup bottle was floating in mid air. Your point of telling them is so that you can get answers and feel ok inside. They tell you something like, “WHAT?!?!? That did NOT happen! Stop it!!” Then you are left with the confusion of knowing what you saw and having no one to turn to for answers or to make yourself feel better. Now, Imagine this happens repeatedly for years and years. It kind of reminds me of gas-lighting… only those that do that to another know what they are doing.

The point of me sharing my experiences is because I know damn well that there are others out there that have gone through almost the same thing as myself. Those that had no one to turn to. I have many experiences to share… real experiences and not embellished examples. I know that my blog post started as one entity and merged into what it has become. This is meant to be. This is right on time. This is me and my story. I have so much more to say. This is just the beginning.

I will end this posting with the definition of Spirituality:

It’s not about your Material collection and what you look like.

I would love to begin communicating with the Souls who have experienced things that could not be explained to them. There’s much more to come.

Blessed Be to You and Yours!

RJ Worrell

Through all of my moving around I am left with one.

PS… Things are different with my family now. It may have been triggered when I was about 25 and conducted my first spell. (you MUST do intensive study prior to dabbling!!) What I did seemed to prove the unbelievable to them. It wasn’t even meant to do that. It wasn’t even meant for them. But what it did changed my parent’s perception enough that when they came back from a vacation they had gifted me something I never in my life thought they would… Pentacle earrings. I cried tears of relief. Massive weight off of my shoulders. That moment meant more to me than ANYTHING to this day. I had nothing left to prove to anyone any longer. They prepped me for adulthood. Little did I know that I would be doing what I am as an adult. 😉 Everything happens for a reason.


Energy Shift / Daily Card

We have shifted from a standstill to movement. Karma is coming in all forms– what is due to you is on it’s way! Some of us are the ones who will make the moves towards giving out this karma. This is the Full Moon in Libra coming up on the 20th, after all! Libra is all about Karma and Justice being served. And with it beginning in the zero degree… it’s ready. Those that have been working tremendously hard towards achievement will be given their rewards. Even if something seemed so far off — that it couldn’t be possible — will become possible. The universe has been watching us. Our Spirit Guides stand behind us. What we deserve rests upon the scales.

Queen of Wands

The Queen of Wands is well known for her Passionate nature. She is inexcusably confident and Inspired. She knows what she wants and goes after it. Astrologically, she is a Fire Sign. Aries, Leo, Sagittarius. If she is not taking action towards her burning desires, then she is in her own world of planning the next big thing! At times, she may feel rushed by impatience and become impulsive. No matter what Astrological sign you are, we all go through each sign at some point throughout the month.

 If you’re an Earth sign and you go through the phase of this queen, You will feel as though you have become ungrounded. Earth Signs main energy is one of being physically connected and with the Fire of inspiration you will feel as though you are floating high above the earth… full of exuberance and tantalizing light bulb moments. For Earth Signs, it takes them away from the day to day hustle and grind and helps to get their dreams moving.

If You’re an Air Sign, You will feel as though you have become FREE. You’re so lost in thought or stuck in your mind through all of the analyzing processes, being very critical on each detail. She helps to get you out of your head and into a place where you can express yourself in such a way that boosts your own confidence and releases conflicts.

If you’re a Water sign, you will feel complete. The reason why is that Water and Fire are the main elements. Without Water and Fire, Air and Earth would cease to exist. Water has the tremendous ability to dream up the biggest fantasies and helps to illuminate various pathways. With Fire you will be taking your fantasies and turning them into a reality. You will feel Balanced. Assured. Rectified.

All is never easy within the realm of this particular queen. She has the ability to bring about chaos when it comes to her thoughts, ideas, and opinions. There is always someone who comes along and wants to battle her. She generates a lot of Jealousy for being so self assured and willing to take a risk against the odds. This queen can fight back and win. She knows this deep inside. She has Strength, and sometimes will choose to sit there and do nothing. All of the barking and the hating has zero effect. She has been through this many times before. You don’t want to get on this Queen’s bad side. She has the tendency to ultimately EXPLODE at some point. Her explosions can cause massive change.

No matter who tries to battle you…. Stand Tall, Stand Proud, and most of all… Believe in YOURSELF!

Blessed Be to You and Yours!

RJ Worrell



Energy Reading – Halted

Many times I feel when energy changes, or in this case Stops. It feels like a strange purgatory. I will admit that I don’t get out much. I am a recluse for the most part, so I rely on friends to help validate what I am sensing.

Today, I feel as though energy is Halted. That’s not to mean that everyone is sitting around doing nothing. What one would habitually do still remains, but most projects and communication has slowed down and stalled at the moment. The energy isn’t as scattered or productive as it was. We seem to be on a teeter totter lately. When energy is halted it resembles a volcano. And we are about to erupt into making the much needed changes in our lives.

I decided to pull out a book that I purchased in 2005 titled “360 Degrees of Wisdom- Charting Your Destiny with the Sabian Oracle” by Lynda Hill. I used to belong to a Known Tarot forum (Aeclectic Tarot) where Deck Creators, Illustrators, Authors and Readers all came together to discuss what we loved most- The Tarot. We also discussed other aspects of divination. Of course I went by my Chosen Spiritual Name of Vadella back then. This forum is where I got to know of her work. I utilize her book like an Oracle. This is what it said about the current energy :

“Beauty in shape or form has been frozen in one moment, denying the natural processes of decay. An archetypal death is symbolized and perhaps a type of “Perfection” is enshrined through a sacrifice. As inspiring as this process can be, it can show difficulties in shifting or moving on. This Symbol can also picture an event that is frozen in time, like something that we Just can’t forget or let go of. Feelings of being stuck and immobilized, whether real or imagined, won’t help at the moment. Perhaps there’s a feeling that you, or someone else, are being used for something that you don’t agree with or can’t really benefit from. A movie may be playing in your mind, over and over, like it’s somehow pinned on a “Dart.” Whatever the situation, is there progress being made or is this a situation of capture, sacrifice and death? Is something being postponed because of an inability to move? What sacrifices are being asked? Is sacrifice really necessary, or is someone being used as a martyr, tied to a situation or an ideal? Are judgments being made on outer beauty rather than inner depth? Are issues from the past pinning you down and stopping you from forward movement?”

It definitely resonates with the current transits. How are things where you are? What is on hold for you? What are you about to embark on?

Blessed Be to You and Yours!

RJ Worrell


Weekly Energy / February 25- March 4th, 2019

This weekly energy brings about a time in your life when you will feel the need to “travel”. There is a feeling that something is missing and now is a good time for you to undertake a quest to find out what. This is not a time to take a trip to escape from difficulties, but as a time to gain knowledge. Travel isn’t always referring to Physical travel, we can travel through our emotions, our thoughts, we can travel within our dreams and visions. We can travel to the past, within our memories and take a journey through our past lives. It helps to understand how a particular incident occurred, where our deepest fears took root, where we may have made mistakes along the way and what we could bring back that is of upmost important to ourselves and within our lives.

We are coming from an energy that felt very heavy and restrictive. At times we have felt the desire to move away from this energy and to focus on our desires. Holding ourselves back from forward movement. Where and what to put our trust and energy into. With Mercury Retrograde happening on the 5th, followed the next day by the New Moon in Pisces, it will become a time to have an honest discussion about where we will be taking ourselves. We will be tapping into our emotions on a different frequency. Most of us will relinquish control and allow ourselves to flow with the current. This current will take us to the planning stages of our next endeavor and phase in life.

The energy time line looks like this : Restrictive – Tumultuous – Emotional – Grounded – Freedom. This is what I am seeing. 😉

We must allow ourselves to work through these issues in order for us to get to the other side. The longer we hold back, the longer we will be required to experience the challenges that cause us great trepidation and frustration. You don’t have to fight for what you want. Allow the changes to occur, don’t control them and don’t expect them to become exactly how you envision. Each time you tackle an obstacle you will become much more confident within yourself to continue onto the next step.

Great changes in life are never easy. If they were easy, what type of gratification would you truly get from them? Those that are true to themselves know that hard work must be done. It is how we learn from mistakes, it is how we develop the best strategies for the future, It is how we become stronger as human beings. Silver platters handed over do nothing for our soul growth.

I have noticed that there have been a large amount of people passing on in just the past two weeks. In the Past few days, it has reached a peak. These individual’s are passing on because there is a new level opening up. Stagnancy needed to turn over. An energetic clearing is occurring. I send my sympathy to those that were a part of this. They are currently going through a “viewing” of their lives. If you’re open and./or have gifts yourself, you should begin seeing signs from these loved ones by the end of March into April. It takes about a month after one passes on before they begin to make their visits. Though, you may feel them in the beginning. Part of their soul breaks away to be at their own funeral. Once we pass on, we go through a viewing process to pinpoint the lessons we were to learn and how we dealt with them as living beings. We actually judge ourselves and our own progress. The Soul does not lie or tell half truths. We are very honest with ourselves. This is why it is us that judge ourselves and truly not God (or whatever you choose to call it, as it is all the same), like most think or have been told. But I digress…

In the next 7 years we will mainly be reinventing ourselves and our priories. Changes will occur in the healthcare system, with our finances and how we use them, as well as how we relate to others.

I will be writing about this upcoming New moon and several other topics in the coming days..

Blessed Be to You and Yours!

RJ Worrell



I have been reading the Tarot since 2004. I have extensive knowledge of Symbolism, Numerology, Colors, Dream Interpretation, Astrology, The After Life, Rituals, and Energy Work. Mostly self taught through experiences and experimentation. I don’t read books based on these subjects, other than Astrology. I find it more personal and powerful to come to your own conclusions through analysis.