Propel Yourself into the Unknown! Air Element/ Aquarius, Gemini & Libra. September 2019

Greetings, Air Signs!! Aquarius, Gemini and Libra! This is your Reading for September 2019. All Signs have now officially posted! Enjoy!

Out with the old, and in with the new! You guys are making changes in your life. You’ve been in a deep state of contemplation. This is a slow progression towards a “freeing of your being.” When it comes to Aquarius, I am seeing you working through past traumatic situations. You are healing through this phase in your life so that you can break free from fears that have held you back. There appears to be a new beginning when it comes to Investments, joint finances and purchasing property. You will also be dealing with any debt, as in situating debts and being able to release any stress in connection with financial burdens. Gemini, your own type of “death” deals with home– your home environment, your family, where you will reside. I’m seeing you going through a period of trying to reset your home life. You could be looking to move in somewhere, out of another, or even attempting to kick someone out of your environment (especially if you have a roommate, or are going through a breakup). I’m also seeing some of you reconnecting with family- extended family and possibly having “family meetings” to discuss your next steps. Libra, I’m seeing some of you diving into spiritual practices. I feel as though you want to go even deeper if you’ve been in study already. There is the energy of looking into new forms of spirituality that you haven’t yet, or what has peaked your interest. Spending time away from your phone and social media. You’ll be cocooning yourself at this time. You’ll be given a lot of downloads in September that you must pay attention to. For those that don’t know what downloads are- they are messages that come to you through spirit, your guides, or even phrases said to you. I’m seeing you creating your own personal space in order to meditate, journal or to take journeys– creating personal space so that you won’t be interrupted. You’re being surrounded by the energy of “Hidden information”, which will be very helpful through this process. You will all be breaking free from stagnancy. You may be dealing with or hear of an actual death in September. For some of you, this death will trigger major changes in your life for the better as sad as that seems. You’re all ridding your life of unnecessary things and people. I’m hearing that you’re “de- hoarding” your life… is that even a word???

How you project yourself to others and what is the truth of your relationships/connections- Judgment reversed. I saw this card as I cut the deck as well. With Judgment upright you are heeding the call to awake to go to the next level in life. You are listening to an epiphany that you’ve had, evaluating the past and seeing where mistakes were made in order to fix them. There is a MASSIVE liberating energy to this. However, others see you as being stuck. Not moving. Not making a decision. Not changing what needs to be changed in your life. You’re not listening to your higher self. Sometimes, this happens out of fear. It’s as though you’re holding onto the back hoof of the horse and you’re being dragged into this new life, new way of being, being dragged into making a decision whether you like it or not. You’re trying to stop the horse, which metaphorically heralds the time of change… causing your situation to develop very slowly. But, it’s moving, just at a snails pace. You can’t prevent this from happening. No matter what you do, no matter what you say. You must learn from the past. Try not to halt any progress that you have made so far. You may have made bad decisions in the past, but that doesn’t mean that it’s ok to do it again or that it will happen again. You definitely feel this great sense of anticipation, but may not know where it’s coming from. It’s as though you’re on the edge. Will you fall or will you fly? Now normally, the Death in reverse show someone running away from a ending in order to prevent it, but you’re not. The reason I bring that up is I am also hearing, ” Flight or Fight”. You’re going to “fight” for what you want. But currently, you’re being slightly resistant… for some of you, it’s because how slow the changes are taking place. So by the energy moving slowly, it’s giving you too much time to think about what is going on and causing your thoughts to bounce back and forth… One day you’ll feel very to tackle any challenge and the next day you don’t want to make a change. There is frustration over the delay and there is indecision indicated here. You just don’t know what to do! But YOU DO—- listen to your inner voice, not your fear… or whatever it is that is causing resistance on your part. Others see you as being indecisive.

What is blocking your goals and desires— YOU. Ok, let me turn over this card… FOOL! Fear of the unknown! Fear of falling off that cliff that I was seeing. This is telling you to be fearless. If you’re trying to make a change that you’ve gone through before, remember how you felt the first time you attempted this. The Fool is about having no prior experience, or I should say, having no prior bad experience to go by. And when you don’t have this bad experience then you’re not afraid to make a change. You see it from the perspective of excitement and what good things it will bring you. The fool Is complete and total freedom, inside and out. The Fool is making a change where others may worry for you or wonder if your experience may cause you strife, because they’ve either had a bad experience themselves with what you’re attempting or worry that you may not make it. Now, you seem to be taking this perspective on yourself and it halts you. You need to see this with brand new eyes. Wiping past issues away as though they never happened. Don’t listen to anyone who tries to stop you. Most of all don’t listen to your own negative self talk. You will make it, you will succeed, it just takes that one step. You need to let go that the horse’s hoof or else you may be trampled upon like the man in the death card. You don’t require a lot of things on this journey. You begin with a small amount, a small step… taking it day by day. I feel as though many of you are thinking about your situation from EVERY SINGLE ANGLE and it’s overwhelming. Say that you’re all prepped and ready to move into a new apartment. You have a bedroom set. But because the issue is moving slowly you begin thinking about all of the furniture and things that you want to make your apartment feel complete. All you really need is a good bed in the beginning. If you sit there and add up the costs of a top of the line couch and all the trimmings, well, then you won’t budge. You only need the BED. Having a good night’s rest sets you on the path to create and do so much more. You will notice in this card that this individual carries a small sack. He has no worries, he is focused on life moving forward. Knowing that all will be ok and that if he meets with an obstacle he will deal with it then… no sooner. He lives in the Present moment. That is what blocks you. You’re not living in the present moment. Don’t worry about what could occur later. It most likely won’t pan out that way. It will be better than you think! 😉

What you need to do to overcome the obstacles- King Of Cups. This is Astrologically a Water sign (Cancer, Pisces, Scorpio). A very small portion of you need to have a conversation with this person. For whatever reason, this individual is in connection with your current issue. I feel like you must put a situation to rest with this person. For most of you this is the persona that you need to take on. The King is very mature, doesn’t allow his emotions to control him, He’s compassionate and caring. It’s very important for you to trust your intuition. I’m not referring to the worries or bad feelings that have had time to seep in and take over, I’m referring to your initial desire that put you on your current path. You will notice in the card that he has all kinds of things going on behind him, these are his emotions going up and down. He holds two tools in his hands and holds them to the side. As he is completely focused on his goal. This means that no matter what is going on, you must remain focused on achieving your desire. Looking at this man’s face, it looks as though he holds great concern. He becomes frustrated by interruptions to his goal. He grows serious as he stops the interruptions and pushes them away. “You’re not going to take control of me!” I feel as though this is you needing to become more disciplined when it comes to outsiders, or thoughts and emotions that can sabotage you on your current path. You need to continue to work on your goal and build a plan. Set the foundation for your success. That’s all you need to focus on is your foundation.

What you can do within yourself to achieve the desires- 4 pentacles reversed… I think Earth signs has this exact card for this position. This is validating what I have already said. The 4 pentacles upright keeps you still, stagnant, unmoving, unwilling, resisting…. When you have it reversed, you allow the energy to flow, you allow whatever to come, Whatever will be will be…. I’m hearing that song by Doris Day, “Que sera sera!” You can look up the lyrics, if you’d like. It details the questions one has about will happen to them in the future. Main point is– Don’t focus on the future. Which I find hilarious that I was given this song since I look into the future for a living. 😀  It’s the same situation here… You’re wondering what will happen once you take the next step. You’ve been held back in fear. Held back by a false sense of safety. Whatever is truly meant for you, will happen. Regardless as to what you do. But I always warn that if you don’t make the change, you definitely won’t like the results. Trust me, even if you don’t know me. 😉 You will either be forced to make the change or you’ll be stuck living the same way and you know how you feel about that. I don’t need to pull cards. It’s always best to just let go and see what happens. You are at least making a decision for movement of energy to occur. You won’t be stuck where you are any longer.

What you can learn from others–7 of Wands…. Stay strong and stand your ground. People have grown spiritually from attempting what you are. This causes them to become a human form of “Hercules” who can battle against all odds. You will become mentally, emotionally and spiritually fit through this. Whether or not you’ll be able to achieve your desires 100% is up to the universe and your specific path in this life. If you’re one who analyzes every single detail, you may set yourself up for disappointment. The bigger picture shows that you will get what you want in accordance to what you deserve. What type of person are you? Do you work hard? Do you treat others with respect? I am being given a “Justice” vibe here, but wasn’t given that card. You are becoming much more of an individual through this process. Breaking apart your old self and inviting in your true self. Not listening to others, not trying to follow their path, but your own. Regardless of what they say. Because many opinions and obstacles could be thrown your way and most likely already have been. You have to keep fighting for yourself. Fighting for your own freedom. It’s up to you and no one else. You WILL prove yourself in the end.

Your Projected outcome- Sun! Could you get a better card?!? NO. The Sun tells me that YOU WILL BE SUCCESSFUL. And I saw that with the 7, because the 7 of wands indicates long-term and hard-won success. You may question when your own success will arrive, but it’s completely up to you. You may have been putting off your own success. The Sun brings a Lucky and Powerful influence to your reading. This means that something good will come out of any problems that you may have had or encounter. You will achieve what you set out to achieve. There’s nothing much more to say with this one…. Just set yourself free.

Your own personal Sigil— Safe and Happy Travel. Protection from harm when Journeying. I smiled with this. 🙂 I instantly saw the Fool card, because that’s what he is doing. He has no fears. He doesn’t need to feel Secure before he goes about his business or attempts to achieve his goals. This validates that you have nothing to fear. Even if something comes along and challenges you on your journey, you will be protected. With Libra, since I was seeing them taking Journey’s, you will learn a lot during them that will help to put the pieces together for you. If you will be traveling and moving, this is obviously speaking directly to you.

Your Oracle message from the Black moon- Lilith “Mystery”/ Gemini “I Think”. Yes, you’re thinking way too much about the unknown. The sign of Gemini is known for being in two minds at once. To me this speaks about over analysis. When you over analyze you become quite stressed to the point of indecision, sure! Mystery says “I Don’t know what to do!!”, “I no longer know what to think or how I should feel!”… you get to the point of being stuck, going backwards, rethinking, or wanting to give up for the time being. Lilith represents, “Soul expansion and cosmic awareness, the force in aloneness, and the path of the individual.” This card basically took what I channeled and placed it all into one sentence. This is a shift in power and consciousness. Symbolic of destruction before creation. During this transition you may become the topic of discussion with those around you. You have many ideas about what you want to do and/or see happen. You may have communicated about this to other’s. And yet, you haven’t fully made the move forward. SO they are questioning whether or not you will do as you say. It’s like they are on edge. At some point, you may have to talk your way out of a problematic situation. I’m seeing you doing a lot of multitasking as you search for the level ground.

Propel yourself into the unknown of your situation! Take back what belongs to you.

Have an amazing September!

Blessed Be to You and Yours!

RJ Worrell

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You’re at a Turning Point- Earth Signs! Capricorn, Taurus & Virgo. September 2019

Greetings, Earth Signs!! Capricorn, Taurus and Virgo! Here is your reading for September 2019!! Water and Fire have been posted.

Currently I am seeing that Things aren’t going well at this time. There’s this “flow” that seems off or stunted. It appears as though you’ve gone backwards, have given up for the moment, or Something happened out of the blue that stopped your progress. Possible bad news was given to you. Capricorn, you’re going through a period in your life when you are beginning to see things from a different perspective. You may be changing your belief system. Trying out something new when it comes to spirituality or religion. You are thinking outside of the box. You may decide to change your major or going back to school. Taurus, You’re going through a huge reset when it comes to hobbies or your interests. You may be considering switching careers or trying to figure out what it is that you’re good at in order to make a career change. This new beginning is set to be liberating for you. I am also seeing a renewal of passion if you’re involved in a relationship, as well as meeting someone new if you’re single. You could even meet someone new that sparks your interest while being involved already. Virgo, This is the year that most of you break free from stagnant situations that have held you back or that have been very unhealthy. This has most likely been going on for the past 9 years. You guys are experiencing a cosmic reset from this past new moon in your sign. What is it that you want to break free from? I’m seeing new belief systems coming (as with Capricorn) with each change in perspective you make. You could be changing the way that you eat, or beginning an exercise regimen. You could be deciding once and for all that you need to stop smoking, stop drinking, stop gambling. You could be factoring in your expenses and seeing where you need to cut things out in order to get rid of excess stress. You will make the changes required to align yourself with your “new life”. You may experience unexpected travel or you’ll branch out in order to learn something new. The Wheel in reverse just means that changes must be made in all of your lives. This is a “revisiting” of past circumstances.

You show yourself as someone who doesn’t back down easily. There is hard headed stubborn energy coming from this card. Taurus, being the Bull, is known well for this. This also has the energy of standing strong against the current, standing strong within your own beliefs, unwilling to change, defending your position. This 7 usually comes after the success you’ve worked hard for in the 6. This is when other’s try to tear you down and apart. Or when a situation gets out of hand and you must work hard to keep whatever it is that you might lose. You will notice that this individual is covered in armor. He has been through a lot. But he also has a red scarf draped around him signifying courage and power. Your internal self is challenged through this. Do you give up the fight? Or do you keep going? Is this worth fighting for? It’s one of those things where you must pick your battles wisely. You may be going back and forth on whether or not to drop this “battle”. You think to yourself that you’ve worked so hard and for so long to have what you achieved or got. It’s a risky situation. You may also experience other’s opinions when it comes to what you’re going through. It can make the issue confusing, or angering depending upon what they have to say. I’m seeing some people just dishing out their two cents without putting in any type of sympathy or experience. They could be saying something such as, “Who cares?! You’ll be better off!”. They don’t understand the magnitude of the effort and time that you’ve put in. They are quick to blow it off as though it’s nothing. This within itself is extremely frustrating. Now, I am noticing that the red coloring of your cloth that drapes around your shoulder is faded in comparison to the rest. For some of you I am hearing, “I can’t win for losing,” (You can’t win because things keep going wrong). For some of you this situation needs to be dropped, only because it seems like no matter what you do to try and “revive” this it will exhaust you to the point of nothingness. As in, you did it for nothing. And maybe you worry about this as well. Why keep up a good fight if it just gets you nowhere? These are your own thoughts. But for now, you choose to stand strong and not change. You definitely want to keep whatever this is. This could be a relationship for some of you.

What is blocking your desires and goals- Page of Pentacle reversed. This also gives me the energy of “not allowing.” Resistance. This page upright is about new beginnings, of a new interest, a new business, a relationship, a new project, a new job. But upside down it becomes blocked or delayed. It’s about looking away from a new opportunity or not seeing this new opportunity of change. I could already tell with the 7 that it was you blocking your own desires. Pentacles is of your element. A page is the youngest. Some of you may be reverting back to childlike behavior. Which goes along with the wheel in reverse. It may not even be behavior, could be something from childhood that you have held on to for a long time. It needs to be released. This also has the energy of insecurity. Which tells me that you don’t want to make changes due to the possibility that you will be left “floating around” and not knowing where to land. In other words, you strive for a stable and secure life. This is in every aspect of the way. As the Earth element, you’re known for stabilizing your foundations, environment, home life, finances… you’re main focus is on Support. So, if you’re left just floating around you are out of your element and it causes much strife internally to you. This is very understandable that you don’t want to make these changes due to that possibility. You don’t know where it will lead and you want to be certain and assured that everything will work out. You want to be certain that there will be no losses. You don’t want to worry about how your bills will get paid, whether or not you’ll find a new partner. You don’t want to lose money. You don’t want to rid your life whatever stability that you’ve gotten used to. For some of you, especially Virgo’s, it’s not healthy where you’re at right now. Try not to be overwhelmed or afraid to make these changes. Try not to push away or fight new opportunities or suggestions that are given. Try to face whatever this new beginning is and be more accepting and open. Keep in mind that most changes require for you to become acclimated in the beginning. This is where you can create a plan and set things in motion. You guys are excellent when it comes to building a foundation. Create your own personal Web on paper or your computer, with a starting off point, and work your way from there. You can even do one of these before you accept this new challenge. It may help for you to feel more secure with the changes. If you’re offered to learn a new job or skill accept it. Try not to make a decision until you’ve actually tried something new. Meaning, try not to state “I don’t like that!” if you’ve never actually tried it first.

What do you need to do to overcome the obstacles…. Queen of Cups reversed. This is Astrologically a Water sign (Cancer, Pisces, Scorpio)… it could be an individual in your life in connection to your situation. If you’re rising or moon is a water sign, then this is you. Personality— Usually, this individual is very loving, giving, caring, compassionate. This person knows just what to do to make you feel completely comfortable and at ease. However, this individual is reversed. So all of that goes to shit, pretty much. For a better lack of words. 😉 That’s obvious because you’ve been battling for position, you’re feeling insecure or uncertain about change, So the ease that you could be feeling is not there whatsoever. You don’t feel comfortable. You don’t feel loved. You don’t feel as though you’re being reciprocated. You are asked to tap into your intuition at this time. What is it saying to you about what must be done? Don’t listen to you mind right now when you “ask” this question. You’ve been listening to your mind. What are the inklings that you’ve been getting but have pushed away because you did not want to make a decision for change? That’s what you’re being asked to listen to at this time. You have to face what you’ve put off. This is honestly the message for all signs right now. There’s still a lot of people (including myself – I’m not an earth sign) who are still working through issues that they haven’t faced. It’s a lot of work to face your shadow. We all know this, we all speak about it, we all may laugh about it at times, but it must be worked through. By not working through things you’re left to be confused, undecided and at times emotionally disturbed. There is this Smothering energy surrounding you. You’re being consumed at this time. And when your thoughts move toward your specific issue, or when other’s begin to speak about it to you, it becomes way too much to bear. You don’t want to think about it. Sometimes, you may wish to flip a switch and make it much easier. You want to fast forward through the beginning of a decision to get a glimpse of what life would be like after making that choice. But you can’t. I actually offer pathway readings that tell you what happens when it comes to various choices. Not to throw in a marketing plug. 😉 Just putting that out there. Try not to put the situation on hold or to the side any longer. Listen to your inner voice and take action. You want to be in control of your life— Now is the time to prove it.

What you can do within yourself in order to Achieve your goal– 7 of Pentacles. PLAN baby, PLAN!! I stated that with the Web creation. Give yourself a decent and reliable timeline. Know that this new beginning of yours will take time to see results. This is like your own garden. You must plant the seed first. Which is the Page in reverse that you’re turning away from. Face the page, plan your beginning, plant your seed and watch it grow. You’re attempting to achieve a long term goal. Just like, for instance, when you want to lose weight, it takes time and loads of effort on your part to get to that point. It begins with switching the way that you eat, watching your calories, getting rid of the unhealthy snacks, and working out. It also deals with your own mindset. That must be changed as well. I’ve been watching “My 600lb life” and I feel so bad for them. Food is THE HARDEST addiction out there. With other addictions you just abstain from it, which is hard enough. But with food, you need to eat in order to survive so you can’t abstain from food, you have to change how you eat. I haven’t touched alcohol in over 6 years and I can’t even imagine if I still had to drink things with a bit of alcohol in them. I definitely would have relapsed!!!! I equate alcoholism to being like a vampire. We smell it and our mouth waters. Well, mine doesn’t anymore. That was horrible experiencing that phenomenon. But I also had to change my mindset and become as productive as I was drinking. I digress… This goes for anything you guys personally need to change and achieve. Maybe it’s saving money, maybe it’s taking a new course, beginning a business, starting a new career, trying to figure out just what it is that inspires you. Don’t expect immediate results. Knowing that it can take a while– 7 months… doesn’t make you feel very secure and I understand that is an issue for you. During this transition is when your own mindset will change, you will come to know a new belief system that helps you tremendously in the future. You will see results from whatever this is in 2020. That’s only if you begin in the next month or two. By making a plan, you will already have a solid foundation to work from instead of feeling lost in the abyss.

What you can learn from others is The World!!! This is one of the BEST cards in the Tarot. It exudes complete and total success, an ending to one phase of life, the ultimate celebration. This tells me that many others have gone through what you are and have been at the pint of being uncertain for change. They didn’t know where it would lead them. But where it led them was so liberating, so free, and very successful in their endeavors. You WILL be rewarded for your hard work. I’m seeing some of you pursuing a dream when it comes to your career, being noticed by influential people. If you’re attempting to lose weight, I see you showing off your body- less clothed than most lol and why not??? Right? You worked damn hard to get that body!! If you’re trying to cut out costs and to save, you will have saved a substantial amount of money. I’m hearing, “Don’t knock it until you’ve tried it.” So it’s going back to where you’re refusing to face something or stating how something isn’t right for you, you don’t like it, “It’s not for me.”. Try not to put the breaks on this, Because this is showing that you will get what you want.

Your projected outcome- Queen Pentacles Reversed…. Booooo!!! This message won’t be for all of you. But this to me states that you won’t make changes. At least not for now. I’m going to pull another with this card. 4 pentacles reversed… Good…. That tells me you will release the strong hold you have on whatever this is. This 4 in the upright is about someone not willing to budge, which is where you may find yourself now. Reversed, you’re opening up to the possibilities, though I get the feeling some of you will be forced… and knowing the earth element– you do not like being forced to do anything!! You want to be in control, not someone else. Having your own sense of control creates the security you love to feel. Let’s go back to the Queen– This Queen is you. You can be either male or female. It doesn’t matter with the court cards. Upright, she takes care of everything that needs to be done. Her home life is solid and stable, all the bills are paid on time if not before they are due, The financial books are in order, the checkbook is balanced, if she owns a business everything is going well, it’s organized and extremely productive, she’s at the top of her game in every aspect in her life. She even presents herself physically as a well put together individual. Hair is done, nails are done. She is also the mother (or father) that keeps on top of every one else’s schedule. But in the reverse, you become disorganized, easily irritated or frustrated, you begin missing money– it gets lost somehow, you may be overspending, forgetting to balance your checkbook, paperwork goes missing, you miss or are late to meetings and appointments, everything builds and builds, but not in the way you want it to, it builds up so much that becomes extremely overwhelming and hard to deal with. It makes you want to take a vacation away from it. What will happen when you come back? You will be met with a ton of tasks to confront and organize. I feel like this is what your situation will become if you don’t stop resisting the change. You could already be at this particular place as we speak. This has the energy also of just wanting to give up and walk away. This can cause an imbalance with your mind, body and soul– showing itself into your environment. Start listening to your gut and stop analyzing — I feel as though analyzing your situation from every angle just drives you further and further away from change. Your overall energy is the Ace of Wands in reverse…. Yet another delay… I don’t think you’ve been inspired enough! That’s the problem. You need to find what reignites passion in your life.

Your personal Sigil for September is- Wishes Come True!!! Rapid achievement of your dreams and wishes!! This is the message in the World card as well. Thinking about the timeline I gave of 7 months… seems far off, but I was also thinking about 7 years… so 7 months in comparison to 7 years would be Rapid. But if you keep putting off this change, it will take a lot longer than 7 months.

Your Oracle message from the BlackMoon is: Water (Sensing)/ South Node (Life’s Debts) — I’m getting a few things from this right off the bat. With the Water card, I already spoke about listening to your intuition. Life’s debts, could be literal for some of you, as in financial debt currently… you may be there already, or on your way. You may fear you’re on your way to debt. How do you prevent this? And how to get out of it (if this is the case)? You could be “in debt” with your situation metaphorically. I’m hearing, “It’s crunch time!”… which tells me that the situation is or will become dire. Your South Node deals with habits and patterns that have been there since childhood. As I was saying With the page. I was also hearing Bad habits. These habits are affecting you currently in your situation. They don’t appear to be helping your case. It could be a habit of how you handled chaos, or a deteriorating issue. Maybe you flee instead of face it, or maybe you don’t know when to let go. You could be one that gets overly emotional instead of having a mature conversation when things get out of hand. Whatever your “bad habit” is, this is the time that you need to get serious about changing it. It’s preventing you from forward movement in life, it’s preventing you from living your best life. “The South Node represents a Karmic point in our charts where certain matters must be discharged or cast off in order to develop and move on toward greater things,” Well, I was seeing that each of you are after all going through a reset. This south Node is the place where you’re challenged and growth occurs through some kind of pain. These debt’s make your life circumstances harder than they need to be. I believe not only is it Karmic but it will become harder the more you resist, yes. It will do that on purpose to get you to change whether you like it or not. Evaluate certain areas in your life in accordance to your specific situation. Only then will you realize there is no longer any connection and that it is time to move on. “Be assured you will have a stronger foundation for your next venture.”

It’s time to leave your comfort zone! You’re at a major turning point in your life.
Have a Wonderful September!!!
Blessed Be to You and Yours!
RJ Worrell

You’re in for A Ride, Fire Signs! Aries, Leo & Sagittarius- September 2019

Greetings, Fire Signs! This reading is for Aries, Leo and Sagittarius from the energy of the New Moon in Virgo going into September 2019! Water Signs have already been posted.

You guys are walking away from a state of dissatisfaction. Though this could be a relationship that you’re walking away from for some of you, I’m seeing that for both Leo and Sagittarius, you are wanting to make changes to your career. Sagittarius wants to break free from their current career or to level up, switch titles, gain a raise or promotion. You’re tired of the way things have been. It has a stagnant/Dormant feeling to this. Sagittarius is going to rebelliously go after what they want. You feel like you’ve been “good” long enough and that you should be compensated, as you watch others leveling up while you’ve been stuck where you are. Leo, you’re focused on your finances and how you make money. Specifically, how you can make even more money. There are changes to your career path as well and I see you creating new goals to achieve. You will be gifted very inspiring ideas on how to can do this. So pay attention to any downloads you receive, as well as your gut instinct. I’m seeing recognition coming to you for your work, as well as potential new clients (If you are independent or own your own business). Aries is all about setting new intentions when it comes to your daily routine. You have felt out of balance internally, and that is because your mindset and your health has been up and down. At times, you have felt scattered. You are looking to take on a new project or possibly a new career. I’m seeing positive changes when it comes to your environment after you reorganize your work/sacred space. You will begin to structure your days in such a way that you may add in meditating or yoga before your day begins. This will become extremely helpful for your mind, body and soul to strike a balance. You will be able to gain much clarity and become more productive.

How you project yourself to the world/ truth of your relationships- Emperor reversed… I saw this card after I cut the deck and here it shows up again. This individual is out of balance, that is why they are reversed. I stated this already with Aries… and the Emperor is astrologically an Aries card… but this goes for all of you. This has the energy of being out of control. Not in control… keep in mind, this may not be about you, this could be someone in your own environment. Either within your workplace or family. Back to you, for now…. They could see you as someone who doesn’t have their “shit” together. Someone who dominates in an aggressive way… in an overly masculine type of way– if you’re female, you come off as very intimidating at times. Unapproachable. Defensive. Easy to provoke. They may see you as someone who wants tings their way only. AS someone who isn’t very open to options or idea’s. I’m hearing, “Throwing down the gauntlet.” So yes, they may see you as someone who is ready to fight a battle or throw out challenge’s. It seems almost exhausting!! The energy of what this individual is going through. It feels like a never ending battle. Who knows, for some of you an issue has been going on for too long and this is where it brought you to. You may be tired of doing things someone else’s way, or sick of being treated disrespectfully. So in turn– other’s may feel as though you’re disrespecting them. What do they expect when you’re just trying to take control of your life and set boundaries, and they repeatedly or someone has repeatedly overstepped those boundaries, or tried to dictate your life. So with this, You’re actually attempting to take your life back, or a certain aspect of it. For a lot of you this deals with your career and how you make money. For other’s this is more of an internal issue, where you may have been your own worst enemy. You seek to discipline yourself and to structure your day. So far what you’ve tried to achieve has fallen short of expectations, but you’ll get there. For other’s this individual is either in your environment, or the person you’ve been dealing with. They don’t want to compromise, they are overbearing and trying to control everything. They appear to be bullying you. But honestly all this person is achieveing is absolute disgust from you and not the respect they are aiming for. (This could be a father or father figure for some of you)

What is blocking your desires and goals- 4 of Pentacles… The Emperor is a 4 as well, and before I pulled this card I knew it was in relation to this. So, if it’s another individual- say this is the Emperor in your life, They block you by not being willing to compromise, They don’t want to share anything or to be generous to you. They are very greedy. I’m getting that if it is a boss, and you’ve been waiting for a raise or a promotion, then this is definitely what you’ve been dealing with. You’ve done a lot for them and the company itself, it’s not like they can’t give you a raise. They are just very greedy with their funds. This has stagnant energy as well…. This could have been going on for 4 years. Selfish, very selfish. “It’s mine! Not yours!”. I’m seeing some of you having an issue when it comes to opening up. You have an immense amount of skills and abilities and you have been hoarding them and keeping them to yourself. You could be afraid of opening up and sharing your gifts. You could be afraid of losing control of your own schedule or freedom even. The main feeling that derives from this 4 is out of fear of losing something of value to you. But there is no energy coming in or out. If you’re holding back afraid of reaching out then this energy can build so much that it consumes you into your own state of disgust. Some of you may not even sense where this is coming from, you may not realize that you’re doing it to yourself. This is stunted growth. Being squeezed into a small space. Confinement.

The advice for you speaks about painful situations or communication that is hard to have. For some of you this involves a separation from either a person or a career. It could be from anything really, depending upon what is that you are wanting to walk away from. With it being reversed you have been trying to work through this at this time. Though I see attempts to hide painful news for some of you. This could actually be what you’re keeping to yourself in the 4 of pentacles, if it personally resonates. I’m seeing you having to manage your stress and trying to take care of your body in some way. Others have been repressing emotions when it comes to another person. It has gotten to the point where you don’t want to think about them, so you will refuse to speak about them. If you do think about them the pain is too much to bear. You may be thinking about taking a course, going to therapy or researching how to control negative thoughts through mood management techniques. The advice is to face whatever it is in order to work through this. When it comes to the number 3, it means that you’re growing in a massive way internally. Try not to stunt your growth because you’ll become wiser and much stronger through acceptance.

What you can do within yourself is to be honest with yourself as well as with others. You must take inventory on the past and where you’re at presently. This is a Wake up call. I’m seeing some of you having to metaphorically knock on some doors to your subconscious. There are pieces to your own puzzle that must be figured out  so; that you can put the issue where it belongs in the past in order to free yourself and regain the confidence and courage that you fire signs are famous for! This is also about having an epiphany, but you cannot force one of those, it just happens. With that said, some of you will be able to work through issues when that happens for you… which should be this month. An internal evaluation period is imperative. Look at what you’ve done in the past, what other’s have done to you, the various scenario’s that you had found yourself in and how you dealt with it. Most likely, you are repeating a lesson from the past and this time you’re going to make the decision to regain consciousness. It’s as though you’ve been sleeping the past 10-20 years. Are you really going to put up with what you face now in the external world? Or will you choose to repeat patterns that got you nowhere? Maybe, what you can do this time is to learn from what didn’t work and change. I know this reading appears to be going all over the place, but I can’t shut out when I’m receiving downloads. Just take whatever information speaks to you and leave the rest. The same goes with Judgment… Take what is still a part of you and leave the rest behind. It something doesn’t truly speak to your soul, you don’t need it. If you’re miserable in a relationship, a career, your town, with parts of yourself… only you have the power to change that. Though I know that change is scary for some people. You must look well beyond that. I don’t normally suggest looking years ahead, even though that is required for setting certain goals, if we must make the change to get out of a negative pattern, try thinking about where you will be a year from now… Most likely you will be happier. If you don’t make the change your life will be almost exactly how it is now, and you’ll be going over the same dialogue that you’re having now in your head. It is as though you hit the pause button though you’re still getting up every morning, drinking coffee, going to work, eating dinner…. You get my point. You don’t feel fully alive. A little exercise for you to do would be to think about where you’re at right now with what you’re going through and think to the past when you were in the same position or having the same inner dialogue (seems to be the phrase lately). Allow your emotions to come over you as you replay the tape. If you do this exercise enough, you will notice a tiny light that you must follow that will guide you out of this place. You won’t notice it with your eyes of course, you must do this exercise with your eyes closed. If you’re advanced, then you won’t need to close your eyes to see what I am referring to.

What you can learn from others- Wheel of fortune reversed— This is when things really get out of control and your luck turns for the worse. You know how bad things always seem to come in 3’s? That’s what happens when the wheel decides to go backwards, or in this case reversed. It’s as though we must hit the rewind button, which is what we are told to do for ourselves in Judgment. Please, don’t stop this growth from taking place. I’m getting now that if you don’t face it, you may be forced to. Decisions will be made for you. You yourself will feel as though you don’t have control anymore.

Your Projected outcome is the Knight of Wands— This Knight is very fast change happening. This Knight being a Wands is astrologically a Fire sign. So for most of you this is you taking charge of your situation. This is when the epiphany comes, when your confidence and courage has come back, after you’ve had that inner dialogue, This is when inspiration hits. It’s time to show other’s just what you’re made of! This energy has intense excitement all over it. With this card I am also seeing that for a bit of you, this individual is coming into your life quickly. They may be the ones who inspire you, cheer you on, tell you about their own success story or what they’ve done when they were in your same exact position. This is speaking about you becoming victorious with what you’ll be achieving in September and that is backed up by your own personal Sigil which states- “Achievement! This is recognition or achieving your goals.” I conducted an energy read about two weeks ago and this came up in that reading as well. So, it was definitely speaking to Fire Signs.

Your overall energy speaks about gaining wisdom and “coming back out into the world” to speak about what you’ve learned or to show it. It’s as though you’ll be coming out of deep sleep. “I didn’t see it before but I do now.” You’ll be able to see things clearly that are going on around you. See people for who they truly are– under the surface. See solutions to the issues that have plagued you for a long time. Wow, this started out one way and now it’s been telling me about a lot of you going through a deep soul searching phase. I’m hearing the song “Lose Yourself”, By Eminem for you guys. 😀 I’ll post it below.

Your Oracle Message from the Black Moon – Taurus/ Mercury…. With these two cards I’m hearing, “Mind over Matter.” — The use of willpower to overcome problems. “You are about to grow something from which there will be beauty and abundance.” Sometimes, it’s hard to convince yourself of changes that need to be made. Pushing thoughts away as though the burden is too much to bear. I’m feeling ultimate struggle when I look at the Taurus card…. Keywords being “I Have”…. You have been struggling very hard with yourself and/or with the current conditions and situation. The card of Mercury shows symbols of the past- which I spoke about going back to the past with the judgment card. Mercury is asking you to change direction and to be spontaneous and flexible (This is the Knight of Wands energy). If you’re not flexible then you will get the energy of the wheel of fortune being in reversed. It’s like you’re trying to fight against the current. Release attachments. The more you resist the faster you will be propelled whether you like it or not. This phase involves observation, reasoning, taking things apart and putting them back together in your own order. You may witness your emotions going back and forth, especially as matters develop quickly through September.

Hold on Fire Signs!! You’re in for a ride!

Have an Amazing September!

Blessed Be to You and Yours!

RJ Worrell

Something’s Gotta Give- Cancer, Pisces & Scorpio – September 2019

Cancer, Pisces & Scorpio!! Here your reading for the New Moon In Virgo/ September 2019!

You guys have the opportunity to create something of value coming into September. For the Sign of Cancer and Scorpio, this deals with breaking free from boredom and connecting with new people, either in your community or online. You want to make new connections. You may not have found where or how you can accomplish this yet, But you will. With Pisces, you have this desire to communicate in an open and honest way with the most important people in your life- romantic connections, friendships, family and co-workers. Some of you could meet a new person during this time that has the ability to grow into something solid and stable in the future. You all wish to break free from this stagnant energy you’ve been feeling, mostly in connection with dissatisfaction on an inner level. You want the excitement to come back or for something to stir up change and that “something” is YOU. It’s up to you to reset your current state. I’m seeing some of you (cancer and Scorpio) joining groups, taking a class, going to meetups to meet others with the same passions or hobbies, and this will create new friends, possibly new romantic connections, as well as business opportunities. Pisces wants to bring new ideas to the table. You have held a lot back when it comes to communication and now you feel compelled to speak your mind. There is a delay for all of you at this time, but don’t worry as that will be shifting quite soon, if it has not yet. You’re all attempting to gain back a sense of balance.

Yes! You guys completely want to connect, as seen here with the 2 of cups. You long for a deeper connection with those around you or towards a specific individual. You want to be able to communicate openly and to have this free flowing energy of give and take. Sharing ideas, sharing hobbies, being on the same page. You want to be accepted and received in the most generous type of way. The 2 of Cups is known as being a Soulmate card, so you’re definitely looking forward to meeting this individual. Some of you may have felt lost and alone, as you watched others being together in a way that you could only hope for. You wondered where your deeper connection was, and I kid you not that if this is the case for you, you will find this person in one of the groups you join, a class you take, or in whatever way you’re personally considering getting back out into the world to meet new people. With this Ace in Reverse, the individual is also waiting to connect and feels the same way as you do. You will find each other. If you’re a Pisces, you most likely already know this person, as the energy of this New Moon In Virgo, personally speaks about new beginnings in Important relationships that have already been formed. You may seek to reignite passion in your current relationship or connections. Or you may wish to connect again with a specific individual to share your thoughts and feelings, or even what has been going on in your life. You’re all presenting yourselves as open and willing.  I’m seeing the energy of a person who is unsure about how or when to approach another. There is a slight nervous energy here. I feel like there are hidden issues that must be discussed. I’m hearing, “I’ve always wanted to tell you that…”. I’m seeing some of you meeting others through friends. You could be joining a class or a group that friends already belong to or want to join as well, they most likely will be the ones who suggest which one to join. There is cooperation when it comes to meeting others.

You may fear that the outcome won’t be what you’d want it to be. You may fear that you won’t meet anyone you can connect with on a deeper level, or that you won’t be received well. You’re afraid of getting your hopes up for nothing. So this holds you back in a type pf repression that seems to grow and grow, causing you to feel sad or to carry low energy. You don’t want to risk feeling disappointed. And who can blame you??? You already feel this way subconsciously, you don’t want to add more of that negative energy onto your psyche. You know that it will take work on your part to create this new phase and to set the right energies in motion. But maybe you’re unsure of how to go about this. Going back to the 2 of Cups, friends can be very helpful at this time when it comes to suggestions. Some of you may be the introverted type, and so in a way going out to meet new people is overwhelming or scary and this also holds you in place. You may be worried that you won’t meet the “perfect” compliment to who your soul is. That you will be surrounded by loud and obnoxious people. So, why bother? Right? Just do it!! You don’t have to speak to everyone you see. You can sit there and analyze who you want to approach if anyone catches your eye. Or, maybe an online group would be the best way to go. But I do feel as though what you’re trying to achieve requires you to do something you wouldn’t normally do. And if you are introverted and you already belong to multiple online groups, you may need to put some fire under your heels to get you out and about. This could be the change of energy you’ve been longing for. Try not to stress to much about what could go wrong or what might not happen when you make this change and reach out. This goes for all of you.

Advice for overcoming the obstacles- I think I already told you this. 😀 5 of Pentacles is about Support. Needing support. Feeling left out. Feeling ignored. Feeling as though no one can help you. That you must do it all on your own. I’ve stated that friends can be helpful. So let’s see what else I get here… I feel as though, for a lot of you, you will have someone who is strong and resilient, who helps to lead and guide you in the right direction. When this person goes through their own rough periods they are the type of individual who can still help others. That’s how strong they are. They don’t allow their own issues to shut others out. They are more than willing to help in anyway that they possibly can. They have a ton of life experience. This could also be a person who knows about specific groups or classes that can help you. They could a person who has the ability to help you get noticed and seen. This person has a type of Spiritual VIP card that gets you involved just because of who they are and who they know. They have all of the information that you need to get started. But it will be up to you to take action. To make that phone call, to join that class, to make a meeting. All they can do is give you the address, the phone number, the website, the Suggestion of which direction to look in. Some of you are being guided by an unseen force, your main guide. Or the specific guide that is in charge of this task in your life. Sometimes we have guides for short periods of time that help to guide us during transition’s. Then they move onto another soul. This individual in the card that represents you looks battered and tired. Requiring crutches to hold themselves up. You won’t feel this way for very long once you merge into this new beginning. There is a major reset coming. 

What you can do within yourself at this time… 3 of Pentacles… COOPERATE! In this card you will notice two people speaking to each other about plans for the future. As one works behind them. Normally, when I am reading about career, this indicates that an interview will be taking place, or that the two hiring employees are discussing an individual they want for the position. You are required to have this dialogue within yourself at this time. Weigh the pros and cons about suggestions that are made to you. Go for what feels right. Make the effort of trying new things, or trying out a specific new way of coming together with others. You must figure out what will bring you the best possible results from any action taken.

What you can  learn from others that have been where you’re at… 10 Swords OOOFF!!! This tells me that those who have been in your shoes before hit rock bottom from not making the needed changes in their life. Remember when I showed you how you’re feeling battered? It could get worse. When we feel out of balance and we do nothing to fix the issue, it drags us down to the ground. One can go into a depression. Feeling numb. Maybe even feeling as though they don’t exist any longer so why bother? A one man pity party. You do not want things to get to this point!! You have a lot to offer and deserve what you’re seeking out. Don’t allow yourself any negative self talk when you do have that inner dialogue happening. You’re working your way out of a type of tunnel. You’re working your way towards the light. You don’t want to dig deeper. You don’t want to put yourself in quicksand either. Try not to throw away suggestions given to you. Try not to hold onto what you’ve been doing (especially if you’re introverted). Change can be very scary for many people. But you need this change so very badly in so many ways. Speak your mind, don’t stand in your own way and go after what you desire. Its up to you to get yourself out of this rut.

Your Projected Outcome- Devil. This is about being held back from an addictive mindset or mentality. Being stuck to bad habits. Needing to free yourself from this repressive state. When I was cutting the deck I saw the 8 of Pentacles in reverse which told me about not putting in enough effort to achieve a goal. On the bottom as your overall I see Temperance in reverse which speaks about being out of balance in your life. This causes you to feel the way you’ve been feeling. This also doesn’t help you when  you’re trying to break yourself free of these bad habits. You are the one holding yourself chained to them. Most of you know you’re self sabotaging, some of you either have a hard time admitting to this, wanting to face it or even fearing the steps you will have to take in order to put yourself on the right track. It’s a lot of work, yes, definitely with the 8 of Pentacles. But in the end you will feel so much better once you take those steps. You have the ability to break free in September. Do what needs to be done. Try to be more open and disciplined with yourself.

Your Power Sigil is : Faery Magick- Respectfully work with the Faeries and elementals to achieve your goals. In other words, Work with what or who you can in order to achieve your goals. Just make sure you take action and don’t remain in this rut.

Your Oracle card from Black Moon is: 8th House- Endings and Beginnings. Yes, I was being told you’re in a transitory phase. “This is where it all goes dark and becomes mysterious.” The 8th house is about going internal…. Deeply internal. So this is where you’ll receive your inner dialogue. The overall energy behind this inspiring you is Capricorn… Maybe your support comes from a Capricorn or an earth sign, but that’s for only a small portion of you, as the message lies within this card– “It is time to focus on your objectives and not let up!” No more walking away, both physically, or mentally.. You must do the work to change this situation for the better. No more pushing ideas or thoughts out of your mind because you don’t want to face them. No more thinking about the bad habits that you may have and doing nothing to correct them. You have to take the time to evaluate your situation, and put in the effort. Use your time wisely!! This card states that,” you are about to meet all the right people who will back you and your goals. Some may be greater in status than you (this is for those looking to make business connections), but they will show you the ropes or support you in some substantial way.” Look at what you’re facing like an unwanted issue in your life that you must take hold of. When it comes to addictive mentality, you must see the issue as a type of bully. How long will you put up with their antics before you knock them out?? In this case, you must word it to your own personal situation. You know that what holds you back is not doing you a favor… it’s causing you internal harm. Take control of it.  Some of you may feel as though your situation is DIRE…. You may be to the point where it’s a matter of life or death. This could be physically– especially for someone who may have to face substance abuse addiction. This is also for your mental health, emotional health and spiritual health. Somethings gotta give! Before you get to the point of no return. Think of this time as your Second chance. Only you can gift yourself one of these.

May you Have a Wonderful September and the courage to change the things you can, with the wisdom to know the difference. 😉

Blessed Be to You and Yours!!

RJ Worrell

Lady Isis and Ra Current Energy 8/25/2019

I decided to turn to the Isis & Making Magick Oracles for this message. Asking what most of you need to know at this time. The First thing I noticed was the connection between “Ra” and the “Sun”. With the Isis Oracle I pulled, “Initiation- Spiritual Testing of Ra and the Lady Isis”. With Making Magick, I pulled the “Sun”. Ra is known as the God of the Sun. With these two we have an immediate connection. The Sun card foretells that with the golden energy the sun can bring fame and fortune. Most won’t become famous, but what will come to you is GREAT achievement.. Either through a reward, an accolade or a contract. With an initiation, it is a transitory phase leading to a new beginning. We do have the New Moon in Virgo coming up on August 31st. It is not shown in the picture I took, but lifting the card the astrological sign of Virgo is underneath. I didn’t do that knowingly either. I wasn’t actually paying attention to that as I plan on conducting New Moon/ September Reading’s This week. 😀 That’s always how it goes for me. One connection leading to another. I digress!

There is this Goddess Lady Isis (You… whether Male or Female) staring in the direction of the Sun (The achievement), Ra’s energy surrounds you, leading you, directing you, willing the best results to come forth. You will feel as through your strength grows beyond all boundries. What is coming if meant for you, designed just for you… and no one else. This destiny of yours you’ve been working very hard towards, even if subconsciously. Physical plans, physical actions need to be made and taken. Fantasizing is over. Physical progress is required.

This card states, ” When you are being spiritually initiated into the mysteries of light, love and power, there are moments of deep challenge. They key is to find the light within the challenge – the learning, growth or wisdom that can be summoned to turn the challenge into an opportunity for healing. Whilst the scorching heat of Ra seeks to burn through any resistance, the Lady Isis with compassion and cleverness will protect you from burning and instead enable you to be nourished and grow from the Light of Ra. Let lsis help you pass the test of intense growth as you thrive with new life. For advanced aspirants on the path, initiation will occur at various stages. Sometimes your entire life will feel like an initiation, at other times specific areas will be flowing easily whilst others are deeply challenging. This Oracle comes as confirmation that you are not needlessly suffering If you can find the light within the struggles, tests or challenges that face you now, you will experience a breakthrough healing. 

It is the almost unbearable solar fire of Ra that can cleanse the Soul of wounds and the love, compassion and intelligence of Isis that can temper the heat of Ra and stop it from burning and drying you out, or else you would be left with nothing but emptiness, anger, bitterness and despair in your heart! These are not meant to be the outcomes of life’s challenges! Rather than losing love and hope through the challenges of life, the Initiate understands all aspects of life are growth opportunities in various states of disguise, waiting to Be discovered. 

As an Initiate, this Oracle urges you to honor life as a gift and treat any challenge or pressure as a way for you to grow into a brighter and purer light capable of great spiritual service on this planet. That spiritual .service includes growing an ability to be able to love freely and beyond limits, to love with courage and faith. 

In fact initiation for you now, dear one, is an opening to new levels of power and peace, self-possession and love. There are such sweet fruits waiting for you at the top of the tree you are currently climbing. It may seem as though you are in barren land at times with little hope, nourishment or encouragement, yet your spiritual oasis is not far away! The Lady Isis and the Power of Ra together are helping you grow. Stay focused on the Lady and Her love for you and you shall pass through the desert of Initiation unharmed and deeply transformed.

Some phrases came to me– Don’t stare at the sun too long, you’ll hurt your eyes. Also, When it comes to the Sun… it does bring Warmth, Light, and Happiness (especially to those that deal with emotional and mental challenges by Dark and Gloomy days), But just as the Sun can gift you with Joy, you can also be burned by the same sun. You have to be careful not to take even the smallest things for granted, to be very appreciative of what you have and what you can currently work with in order to move forward and through any obstacle.

Also, what clicked with me while reading the card’s meaning was, “Be Discovered”. Some of you will be discovered for your skills and talents come this Fall (Northern Hemisphere). You are beginning this new phase or project soon and it will become the jumping point to your ultimate future.

Have a Blessed Sunday!

RJ Worrell

Energetic Impression Led me to a Mental Institution (Part One)

When I was in 8th grade in the early 90’s I was a pretty content individual. I was involved in multiple after school activities. But, what I loved the most of all was coming home to watch the MMC (Mickey Mouse Club). I absolutely adored The Party, which was a musical pop group formed by members of the MMC. One of the members was DeeDee Mango. Most people now know of her due to her role in the Broadway Musical titled “Wicked”. I had a best friend at the time of whom I could talk to about my ghostly experiences. All was as good as can be in my world.

The Party, MMC

One day as I was flipping through a magazine I came upon a short article about The Premiere of the Doors movie starring Val Kilmer as Jim Morrison. I still to this day have NO IDEA what caused me to become so intrigued about this. The Doors music was entirely different from anything I was listening to at the time. Though I do recall a ride home from preschool when “Light My Fire” came on the radio. I had never heard of the song before. And yet I sang along to it. My mother glancing at me with a questionable look asking how I knew it. She never listened to them either. She would more so blast the Carpenters, Patsy Cline and Love music of the 50’s.  My memory remembers a woman’s voice singing along with Jim. That  It confused me a bit back then when I began listening to The Doors as to where the woman’s voice went. Did I imagine it?? I now realize her to be one of my main guides, as I have heard that voice a few times in the past 6 years. Either as I was in a transformative state or in my slumber.

The Doors- Light My Fire

I watched the movie (The Doors)  and I fell in love. I fell in love with his experiences, his thoughts, his trials and tribulation’s. Not his appearance. I have had to explain this on multiple occasions, as most fall for his physical self. I am what is titled to be a “Sapiosexual”… a body does nothing much for me. I Digress, I began to purchase every book on him. Read about him. Wrote essays on him in school whenever I had the chance. After i submitted my essay I entered into a heated debate with one of my teacher’s who told me I was romanticizing him. I thought he was ludicrous. I felt an instant connection due to Jim’s experiences. Just like he would tape his brother’s mouth shut at night to amuse himself, I would sing morbid melody’s made up on the spot to one of my sister’s who always had a reaction. It was a cry for help really. Where as my other sibling’s mostly just ignored the things I would speak about; she would call me crazy. It was bits of revenge for not giving me support and causing me to feel even worse. This one time we were heading to a bridal shop to get dress fittings for my Sister N’s wedding. N called Shotgun instantly. B stopped in her tracks knowing she was getting in the back with me. She called out, “I’m not getting in the back with that psycho!” I gave her a sinister smile as she took a seat next to me. Halfway through the car ride I began signing her a ditty in a tone only she could hear about a Knife. I won’t go into details, But I wasn’t threatening to hurt her with one, more so to cut my own self. The morbidity started early and I now see it in my birth chart. I’m never phasing out of it.  I will come back to this point in time, since I fast forwarded to give an example of one way In which I related to him. Eventually, a whole wall of mine in my bedroom was dedicated to him and the band.

I slowly felt drawn to want to join the army. I can’t recall why this was. Because honestly, I had wanted to be a writer since I was 12. That was my one and only dream. I wrote every single day. Any chance I got, really. I knew deep within that was what I was meant to do. Around this time I had found my father’s name badge that he had taken from his own Vietnam war jacket. I asked him if he still had his jacket, but he had thrown them out. One day I was speaking with a friends father about my desire to go into the army and about my father’s name badge but lack of jacket. He opened up his coat closet and drew out his own war jacket. He gestured for me to take it. I sat in surprise. A moment of silence. I asked him if he was sure. It just seemed so strange to me that this man would hand over something he had held onto, that was a major part of history, for so long to a young girl he barely knew. He also had 3 of his own kids that he could have passed it to. I took it home and sewed my Dad’s name badge onto it. The jacket fit me perfectly which was also strange now that I think of it. Keep in mind as you read this that I am against war. I don’t have one bone in my body that wants to hurt other’s. Though I do have a violent placement in my chart. I didn’t pay attention in History class until they began teaching about the Egyptians… Felt like home! Point of the matter is, learning about the wars bored me to tears. In one ear and out the other. My father and my Uncle never spoke about their experiences. I’m not sure about my Uncle, but my father now suffers from PTSD.

Fast forward a few months after I began wearing the jacket. By this point I was starting to feel depressed. I felt drawn to knives. I began placing the largest one I could find in the house under my pillow at night. I felt like I had to protect myself but I didn’t know why or from whom. Periodically, my Mother would find it and put it back in the kitchen. I would just take it back and place it under my pillow. It went on this way for quite some time. I began writing very morbid things in my journal. My thoughts were mostly filled with emotional visions of chaos, pain and anger. Spirits became more active in my life and within my environment. Especially, during the hours when no one else was home or in the very early morning. If you have not yet, you may want to read my post titled, “Spirituality… It’s seriously not a trend.” to gain a bit of backstory. I truly didn’t have much support with my family growing up when it came to my spirit interactions and I definitely wouldn’t at this specific time period, so I barely told them anything. Things got worse. Not only would I hear the sounds of little kids giggling and playing on the steps that connected our upstairs dining room to our downstairs living space, But I would hear the screams of men in the middle of the night. There was nothing I could say. There was nothing that I could do. There was no one to turn to.

One day I felt compelled to draw lines and arrows on the dining room wall. Then I forgot about it. That night as we sat down to eat dinner my father glanced at the wall in scrutiny saying, “What the hell is that?”. He got up to get a closer look. I felt instantly ashamed. I had no answer for him. My sister N just giggled. It wasn’t funny. It was NEVER funny. I just wanted the insanity to end. I had no idea why I felt so low. I began to think about and eventually attempt suicide on multiple occasions. Always behind everyone’s back. I swallowed whole bottles of Tylenol, Advil… it wouldn’t do anything but put me to sleep. In the middle of the night I would wake up with sharp shooting pains in my stomach. After about 4 of those attempts, I went into my mother’s cabinet and grabbed a prescription. I didn’t know what it was or what it was for. I didn’t give a damn either. I wanted OUT. It ended up being a medication for something minor. Little did I realize at the time that I wouldn’t find anything to achieve my desired result, since my Father was newly sober and there would be nothing in the house. I got to the point where I took the knife that was under my pillow, this was at my lowest point of all, I was sitting in the bathroom crying in silence and was about to stab myself in the heart. My mother got in some how, shook her head and took it from me. She couldn’t figure out what was wrong with me either and just thought it was “teenage hormones”… because teens are known to act nuts apparently /Sarcasm. Lol

A few weeks later I was at my lowest point. I played sick and stayed home from school. I hid in my closet when I realized that my father was home. Waiting patiently for him to leave and go to work, without the realization that he no longer worked where he had for the past 30 years. Many things were kept from me for some reason. So I patiently waited in my closet for probably over an hour until I could no longer sit there. I then walked out into the kitchen to be greeted by my father who asked me why I was home. I responded, “I’m sick… I don’t feel well.” a Half-Truth. He told me he was going to take me to the family doctor. We arrived and the doctor took my temperature and blood pressure. He asked me what was going on because he found nothing wrong with me. I couldn’t hold it in any longer. My own personal internal volcano exploded into the physical. I told him about my feelings, my thoughts, my suicide attempts. I was seriously frustrated beyond all measure that nothing took my pain away, took my confusion away, took my life away. He opened the door and told my father to come into the room. He was of Great concern for my well being. He asked my father where my mother was and to call her to come to the office. I felt my Dad’s energy go into “Oh shit” mode as he made the call.

She arrived at the office and he relayed everything to my parent’s because I didn’t want to. I had tried to tell whoever would listen about the things I was experiencing on multiple occasions and wasn’t taken seriously. He lectured them a bit, only because he was extremely worried about what I had told him. I surmise that this particular office visit wasn’t what he came by often. He told them about Eugenia Hospital in PA, which has actually been shut down since I think 2006? It was a private mental institution for Teens and Adults. I immediately wanted to go. I felt comfortable to the fact that I would be around other’s that I could actually speak to and not be dismissed.

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Because this is a long post I will break this up into two parts… Part two, you will venture into the hospital with me.

Thank you for reading!

Blessed Be to You and Yours!

RJ Worrell

Weekly Energy through Channeling and Tarot

🌙 Continuation of Energy….

Whoever has been continually taking from you- your emotions draining, your mental state waning, your time, your energy, your finances, they’ve been taking, taking, taking for so long… you’ll put an end to it. 

For some of you, this person is one who likes to be in control. Wants to make all of the decisions. Wants others to live by their own rules or their own way. They may make a fuss when you try to do things your own way. I’m getting from this 10 of swords card that you have absolutely had enough! Some of you may get out of this in a cheeky kind of way. A way in which you’re not completely hiding that you are going to do as you want but you won’t fully show what you’re doing.

For some of you, there is a complete ending to a family tie, or you will walk away from a group of people that you have been involved with. This could be a group of friends, a networking group, a group that you belong to on social media, you may have even ran this group and now you don’t want to run it anymore (You’ll pass over the reigns to someone else).

I’m seeing some of you going to an individual for advice on how to get out of a sticky situation, and they are telling you that you need to be very careful about the steps that you take. Planning everything in a strategic way. Maybe so you possibly won’t have any consequences. I’m also seeing running away for some of you, possibly hiding your identity.

With the Hierophant we have change happening this week, also with the 10 we have an ending, and with the seven we have personal challenges. You will become like the queen of wands, personal growth when it comes to courage, and with what you do may inspire many to do the same. On the other hand, those that don’t have the courage to change may disagree with what you do.

There is a Change in the dynamics of a family, relationship or group. What once looked good on the surface will be revealed for what it truly is secrets-come to light what has been held back will be stated in a matter of fact kind of way. 

Situate a new state of being.

The message that I posted last week is on going at this time as well. Energy does not change so quickly, but may merge into another.

Blessed Be to You and Yours! 🖤

♾ RJ